What your about to read will include a heavy dose of God. There will be talking about, praising, and all around good vibrations of God in the coming words. So, if you don’t want to be complicit in the glorification of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit then stop reading now…
The reflection, which is the basis for this entry, began last night. For about a month my brother hounded me to read ‘Shake Hands with the Devil’ by Romeo Dallaire. It is the accounts of Lt. Dallaire’s time in Rwanda and how humanity basically allowed 800,000 Rwandans to be slaughtered in a few weeks. I am 30 pages in and I can feel the frustration rise with every flip of the page. Anyway, I was reading the preface and at the end of it was this chilling paragraph:
“After one of my many presentations following my return from Rwanda, a Canadian Forces padre asked me how, after all I had seen and experienced, I could still believe in God. I answered that I know there is a God because in Rwanda I shook hands with the devil. I have seen him, I have smelled him and I have touched him. I know the devil exists, and therefore I know there is a God. Peux ce que veux. Allons-y.” LGen Romeo Dallaire – July 2003
I had to pause a second to let what I had just read to sink in. He knew God existed because he met the devil.
How lucky are we, as Canadians, that we have the privilege to wake up in this beautiful country every morning. We wake every morning and go to work without every wondering if we will make it back home to see our families. We can do, basically, whatever we want. We get to go to school, have coffee with friends, swim in our rivers, eat our fresh food, etc. People in Rwanda didn’t , and probably still don’t, get to do any of that stuff. How come we Canadians are so lucky to be Canadians? What makes us so special that we get to live in a safe and beautiful country? It’s not really that fair, is it? I’ll answer those questions with a story of my own:
When I was building my house I fell into a bit of a depression. It was a good solid 3 month depression. I would wake up every morning, stroll over to my house, which at that point was still under construction, and think, “Why am I so fortunate? How come I get to have this amazing house? I didn’t really do anything to deserve it.” And from that I fell into a bit of a spiral. Every day I would think the same thing about my house. It almost felt wrong for me to be in the position to have something so great. Instead of what I was going to live in, I felt like I deserved something much less….say a shack in the woods or something. Every day I would tell God how guilty I felt that I was getting something so extravagant. Then, one day, God sent me a message. I love those. It’s hard to understand if you’re not a believer but every now and again something will happen in your life that only God will have been able to do. Lucky me, this particular day I experienced one of those moments. I was in the drive-through for CIBC bank, about to deposit my pay cheque. I was in my usual funk of feeling guilty about my sweet house and telling God that I didn’t deserve it, that I actually deserved a shack in the woods. So, there I was waiting in my car to deposit my pay-cheque, feeling like garbage, and I looked ahead to the car ahead of me in line and the license plate read, “BEGRTFUL”. I’m still a bit stunned. A vanity license plate had just changed my life. I snapped out of my funk and at that moment I thanked God for all I had received, and was about to receive. That, despite not deserving any of it, I was thankful that my situation had allowed me to build something great. It was a God moment. It was something that happened and the only explanation was, “God did it”. It wasn’t a burning bush or virgin birth. It was a vanity plate. But it was still God.
By now you’ve probably figured out this is a blog about grace. How, despite falling short and being undeserving, God still loves you. He loves you so much that he sent his one and only son to die for you. That is Grace, my friends. So thank God for living in Canada. Thank God for allowing you to go to work, swim, eat, drink, and live. Then ask yourself how we can use what God has given us to help people in places like Rwanda, Pakistan, Libya, the Congo, etc. instead of feeling bad about being given so much and them so little.
Here’s some good news: God loves you, a lot!
peace,
Jimmy